January 23, 2013 by Roseanne
It’s been four months since allegations of Kausthub Desikachar’s (son of TKV Desikachar, grandson of Krishnamacharya) sexual, physical and emotional conduct were revealed to the yoga community. But other than a few statements from the Krishnamacharya Yoga Mandiram and letters from a senior teacher, there has been a cloak of silence around the developments.
The silence was broken on January 16, when Desikachar sent an unassuming email to his students (one student of a student forwarded this to IAYB). It appears that he’s been taking the time to heal and plans on returning to teaching.
Greetings from Chennai where we are approaching a very propitious time of year – Pongal – the festival of thanksgiving to nature, especially the Sun. It is at this auspicious time that I write to you with the purpose of breaking the silence of the past four months. My thanksgiving is for the possibility of positive change as reflected by our seasons.
These months of being still, away from teaching, have been some of the hardest of my life. This time has given me the much needed opportunity to reflect on what went so horribly wrong and to begin to transform myself as a person. There is no way of changing this past. I sincerely regret for what has happened.
In this time, some people have taken advantage of my silence and spread inaccurate and exaggerated information. Perhaps, we each need to be careful not only to listen to the loudest voices.
Through a journey that embraced both professional and traditional methods, I have been able to go deep into a healing and self-enquiry process. I am continuing to make every effort to shift patterns to improve myself on all domains. I take responsibility for my actions and embrace the fact that there is no one other than me to blame for the disturbing changes that occurred.
From this quiet place, I hope to emerge a better person. Personally and professionally, I am looking to take small steps to create an appropriate and healthy foundation for future teaching. In this, I would ask you to judge me not by my words – even by this email – but rather by my future actions in offering teachings from a tradition that holds the strength to transform darkness into light in the hearts of all of us.
With respect and in good faith