an attempt at making an excuse for the inexcusable

Okay, whoa, what’s with the silence? In case you were thinking I jumped off a bridge or something, I’m letting y’all know that I’m still here, still lurking around the internets. January is hard, motivation is hard ~ but yoga, for me, is all about developing compassion, so I’m not going to be too hard on myself. But I will offer up a couple of explanations:

– my lower back “went out” (still don’t really know what that phrase means) 2 weeks ago, thanks to a new office chair. I replaced the bunk chair with a highly superior chair, but my back is still adjusting. This makes sitting at my desk, blogging, a not so pleasant experience. Then just as my back started to feel better, I developed a urinary tract infection. Starting to wonder if I have some first/second chakra issues that need to be dealt with…

– I started an Anusara teacher training program last weekend, so I’ve been really focused on my practice and studies (which have also provided relief from the nagging back pain). Felt like I should have blogged about it, but didn’t know what to say. Other than I love it (the training is actually part of a year and a half long Anusara “immersion” process ~ only 5 months to go). Love it, love it, love it!

– I’m numbed out by the whole Haiti earthquake situation, and blogging about yoga feels trivial in light of such a tragedy. For the first couple of days, I was aching with sorrow and heartbreak. Then I started to feel overwhelmed by the “calls to action” and the pleas for donations and the outpour of support. I think I’ve reached my saturation point, as the constant press coverage is starting to irritate me and make me feel like a “bad yogi.” What many people people are interpreting as a global symbol of our interconnectedness and an opportunity for service actually makes me feel disconnected and powerless. I gave some clothes, I gave some cash, and I wish I could offer more but I feel depleted.

– And to top it all off, there have been 13 hours of sunlight this month in Montreal. 13 hours! I haven’t seen the sun in over a week, and I’ve been experiencing a corresponding lethargy and sluggishness through my whole body and mind. Despite all the yoga (which seems to be the only antidote).

Anyway, my lovelies, soon I will be back in the swing of things. The holidays disrupted my little life routines, and I’ve had a hard time getting back into them. But I am, slowly and gently. In the meantime, here is the awesome Larry Platt and his “Pants on the Ground” audition for American Idol (the first viral sensation of 2010):

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  1. I was wondering… Anyway, wish you well!

  2. Ok, yeah, good to have you back and all, but I was totally distracted by the video! It already has 1.3 million hits on YouTube. Is there a Yoga message here?:

    Pants on the Ground
    Pants on the Ground
    Lookin Like a Fool With Your Pants on the Ground
    With the Gold in Ya Mouth
    Hat Turned Sideways
    Pants Hit the Ground
    Call Yaself a Cool Cat
    Lookin Like a Fool
    Walkin Downtown With Your Pants on the Ground
    Get ’em Up…Hey!

    Get Your Pants off the Ground
    Lookin Like a Fool
    Walkin, Talkin With Your Pants on the Ground
    Get ’em Up! Hey!

    Seriously, girlwarrior, sorry to hear about your difficulties. I assumed you were just totally consumed by your work. We look forward to hearing from you whenever you have the time and inclination. The blogosphere is not the same without you.

    Bob Weisenberg

    • thanks for transcribing the lyrics for us, bob! yep, “pants on the ground” is a distraction all right. crazy how it’s gone viral ~ the facebook group has almost 1.5 million members ( as for the yoga message… maybe it has something to do with being yourself, letting your inner self shine through, taking risks… something like that.

      yes, i’m rallying up my girlwarrior troops. not gonna get defeated. thanks for the support!

  3. P.S. Don’t forget your name, “girlwarrior”

  4. Well, I was hoping that, if you jumped off a bridge, it was into some cool Caribbean waters, and you were enjoying a nice swim right now…

    Apparently not…hope you’re feeling better soon.

    And Pants on the Ground…it’s the song of the decade…even though the decade’s only a few weeks old, I can’t imagine there’s gonna be anything better coming along…

  5. This lack of sunlight is making me feel like my pants are on the ground too. Let’s have tea next week if you’re feeling up to it – that might cheer us up!

  6. Dear Rosie,
    Sending good vibes over to you!!! Congratulations on keeping up with your practice – nothing is more essential, especially when the world is facing such distriss as what is going on in Haiti now. It is up to every one of us to stay centered in compassion, and gather our hearts strenghts. I may be wrong on this, but I strongly believe that our energy and thoughts affect the planet on a deeper level that we can imagine.
    Sending you love,
    Until soon,

    • so true, isabelle! thanks for the good vibes. the sun came out today (for a few minutes, but better than nothing) and i feel realigned. mmmm…

  7. ugh, Andrew made me watch this video… i have this weird thing where I am not a fan of this stage of American (or Canadian) idol… i feel so bad for the contestants… they only allowed him through to make fun of him. But then, I am a sensitive soul and Andrew couldn’t see my point hah.

    I am very excited for you with your Anusara practice!!!! i need to try more classes on yogaglo…. 🙂

    • EcoYogini.

      I generally agree with you completely about American Idol. It makes me sick to see how they mock and deride people to get a few laughs. I refuse to watch the show, even the later stages, because of this. I don’t respect the judges or the producer (in stark contrast, by the way, to “So You Think You Can Dance”, which is my favorite show.)

      That said, I really think this video is an exception and that they end up celebrating this wonderful guy, not making fun of him. Did you watch the whole video? They end up having hundreds of contestants singing and dancing his song by the end, and the judges hanging with him.

      Give it another look and see if you don’t agree.

      Bob Weisenberg

      • i agree w/ mocking and derision on american idol, and how painful it is to watch. when i first watched this video, i also found it celebratory and inspiring…

        then i made the mistake of watching a bunch of LP’s media appearances after the show, and they were unbearable. one of the videos, called “the man behind ‘pants on the ground'” was just him singing the song and pulling down his pants while a condescending tv host cheered him on – and then we didn’t actually learn anything about the man behind the song. the media is treating him like some of kind of trained monkey, and it’s sad to watch.

  8. girlwarrior. That ruins it for me. Is American Idol treating him like that, too, or just some misguided reporters?

    If he’s being mistreated in general I don’t want to be a part of it, and suggest you scratch this whole discussion.

    On the other hand, if he’s being treated well by American Idol, and hopefully making some money from this somehow, then I’m OK with it.

    What do you think?

  9. well, he’s willingly complying w/ the hype and getting his 15 minutes of fame. and apparently he’s been offered a record deal (let’s just hope he’s written some other songs and isn’t just a one-trick pony).

    i just recommend appreciating this clip for what it is ~ and do not watch anything else about him on youtube. resist the urge to watch videos children singing his rap in the bathtub and jimmy fallon singing “pants on the ground” neil young style. resist, resist, resist…

  10. I will resist, at your suggestion. And I guess he’s a big boy.

    Now, I’m wondering when someone from the Rap world is going to complain about the whole world disrespecting their way of dressing. That’s next, I’m certain.

  11. ….’twas a funny bit, but here we go with the dignity thing all over again. Anyway, I hope the muse revisits soon (strappy yoga shoes, hint hint).

    Don’t worry too much about Haiti, you did contribute and that is more than much of the rest world can say. In those situations I think of that (sweet but sappy) story about the beached starfish–little boy throws a couple of starfish back into the sea, grownup points out that he can’t possibly make a difference because there’s so many of them to save, little boy counters that he made a difference to the three he threw back…

    Remember, slowly but surely, the days ARE getting longer!

  12. Brenda thanks for the starfish reminder. I was feeling the same about Haiti, totally overwhelmed, especially with the aftershocks and the complete confusion and lack of actually getting the aid to those who need it which is currently the case. I need to be more like the little boy and remember my small contribution will make a difference to one person. A friend actually saw an orphan wearing PJs (homemade) that she had sent down on the news – she cried for an hour and was thankful for the validation that through small and gentle things great works can be accomplished.

  13. thanks for the inspiration, brenda and donna! love the starfish story… and small acts of immediate action can make the feelings of overwhelm less intense!